I only have a bit more of the semester to get through before I am all done. I want to do well but lately I wonder how engaged I have been with school. I find it difficult to study for long stretches of time and I am almost used to mediocre or poor results in some of my classes. This is just a continual search for what is right for me.
I feel like I need a good rest but I would feel guilty if I didn't try hard to the very end. I also have feelings of inadequacy when I am not doing well in a class but I see others around me being able to handle the course material or the workload. There is a certain standard that must be met and perhaps I have not reached that level. I wish myself good luck with the rest of the school term and I hope that I can rise up to the occasion and produce my best effort and body of work.
I am lonely and I feel that I need others more than ever. But I just don't want to burden others. I know at this stage, this is something that I need to work thorough and figure out for myself but I should accept that whatever has happened, happened for a reason whether good or bad. I should try to look on the bright side and keep trying my best because things will eventually start going my way. Success doesn't happen instantly and I have to remember that I am not the only one going through conflict or school stress at the moment.
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